Monday, March 19, 2018

Yesterday at 8:52pm

Thursday, February 15, 2018

cannot

had the day off today, and I got to enjoy some extra art time, digital over traditional; SO. FUN.

here's one?, tiny version. One of a few that i did today. I cannot contain my excitement, therefor we have this post. been working on oil paintings, as per usual, but i don't wanna post till i finish. But, this is good, I'll post this: Digital Mixed Media, BrokeBot work in progres


Sunday, February 11, 2018

casual feelings

graphite, 5x5" on paper



Edit: as i went through my uploading process, I felt the vibe of the post, i typed it into the title/subject
I picture her nude, in a zoomed out view, in a painting. And like the Birth of Venus, she will represent love.

Wednesday, January 24, 2018

Dear Blog

So like, well, I can't sleep. So I thought I'd like say hi. Earlier, I wrote a couple pages. In "long hand" hand writing? You know. I don't often, or like I think about it, but, don't do it, or do it lots but then stop for a time. Like writing daily then not so much.



Anyway. I gotta get my mind quiet and stuff so I can sleep. /// xo

Thursday, January 11, 2018

Nothing to Read Here.

heya. So, hello. I am not sure, about this post. Mostly, just writing, to write. because, I've too much in my head. And stuff. Um, yeah. I used to write a lot more. Now, I don't even use a pc very often at all.
And, just now, I guess, I got some time, because, bff is out getting food. and, I'm just here. Typing, as my writing, because faster. I'm just here. Getting ready for bed. My hair is dry now, I shall flip over my pillow, and I can sleep ASAP. MM, tomorrow, I will get addresses, unless my dad is still awake and is about to send me them now. Apparently, he gets to bed later, than desired. Same here. But, I'll do better soon. Thank goodness for coffee, helping us all stay awake. Great. So, yeah, life is neat. Being alive is neat. Here is my therapy post, therapeutic post. That, I shall probably likely not share anywhere. And, I've no followers, So, My words go to, the vast emptiness of the internet. I guess, I will probably share a link somewhere, I do every so often. I've got this blog and such other stuff, other blogs, and stuff. whatever.

I am tired. Writing is good for you. It's spelled with on T. according to spell check. Thank goodness for spell check. GREAT. Then, I'll be asleep, and I'll dream nice stuff.
 Actually, a couple nights ago, or last night, or the night before, I had a cool dream, I think last night, i was at like a party, and had some interactions, I guess.


Anyway, I'm gonna go now. I send you my love, eyes that see, and read.



G.O.D. I need to paint. I need to paint. I need to paint. I need. To. Paint.



Life is nothing without it. like, what is it?


I don't get it. Anwway... hi. Goodbye.

Friday, September 29, 2017

i've been working on 2.5x3.5"s these days

Wednesday, September 27, 2017

Work is going okay this week and the last. Back at it.

The breaks are too short; I'm at the end of training though so I feel OK.

Thursday, September 21, 2017

I just drove from the yard to the gas station, for the first time first thing in the am.

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

Sunday, July 16, 2017

I'm so hung up

Saturday, July 08, 2017

Post of too much info

I'm alive as heck. Aldo asked me the other day, to rate Life. One to five stars.
I rated it 5.


But I later realized, it really actually is more of a pendulum swing that swings from 5 to probably zero. I think that made us laugh. A good laugh.


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Hope your day was good, reader. Hey, check my sc: +brokeneyeball

Friday, July 07, 2017

Having a hard time sleeping. I think it's the bright screen, that I looked at from bed after turning off the lights. That I am now holding, so I can talk to myself, as a ritual to let go of the day.

Here's a drawing I'm hating more and more as time goes by. I drew it today. It turned out OK for not really doing many self portraits ever

(click on timestamp below to see) 

Thursday, May 18, 2017

Test

Wednesday, May 17, 2017

2 Fridays ago we put the new kenworth to work

This Friday I have a 3rd Friday reception at the Lost Leaf! A fine local bar displaying my art for the month of May

Saturday, April 22, 2017

sometimes I feel like a person who can't actually communicate with people very well.

Tuesday, April 18, 2017

A lot of everything feels so dumb and pointless. That's just one side of the coin though. Everything is also just about infinitely possible.

But you can't have everything.

Friday, March 24, 2017

I can't share much, for fear that I will not finish it.

Sunday, February 26, 2017

Parts of me are so sad. And parts of me are so happy.

Thursday, February 16, 2017

Friday, January 13, 2017

Working today, a Friday. I haven't had many of those.
This is a unique one.

Monday, December 26, 2016

This is a picture of a watercolor attempt with filter on it. Some fade mostly and a blue tint. Tomorrow I work, right about now is when I'll be going to sleep/bed. Working also on s website makeover, on the side. Practicing watercolor, I finally found my watercolor moleskine sketchbook tonight, I paired it with my new found limited knowledge of the media and came up with this. K bye. Happy holidays to u too.

Monday, December 19, 2016

After eight days off, I'm back to work. And about to drive again. New transmission now, and last week it was a new clutch.

Monday, November 28, 2016

This month I have enjoyed at least the past two weeks in a row as 3-day work weeks. I've got to catch up on day counts. I'm curious. Look at those clouds, past all the man-made stuff. They looked so nice from all angles from which I could spot them. This is from on our way out.

Wednesday, November 02, 2016

Day 33

Today I moved approximately 20 tons of gravel for the first time! Twice. I suspect this is day 33, but I stopped keeping count a couple weeks ago. It's been fun but also kindof exhausting and busy. Play hard. Work hard!

It's different and odd working for real money. I'm used to working on whatever I want, and hoping to get paid one day. All backwards.

Tuesday, November 01, 2016

Days

I've lost track of the days

Wednesday, October 19, 2016

Day 27
Just driving around with an empty truck bed, and being passenger while the truck is loaded. Learning is tiring. This fourty wheeler is a pain to learn well, like not really, but ishh is hard. Not impossible just not easy.

Wednesday, October 12, 2016

Just drove into a new mine pit! The one where you drive through desert. Up very east. It was cool

Tuesday, October 11, 2016

About to drive the fourteen wheeled out of this place.

Wednesday, October 05, 2016

Day 21
Drove into a new mine today, just earlier. Got a "there you go, mam" after pulling in to pick up the buckets of fine rock or whatever it was. I just do as instructed. It was cool! Freeway pro and all. Downshifting better. Minimal downtime besides being passenger. And lacking some sleep.

Tuesday, October 04, 2016

Timestamp the fuck outta this. Too many updates. It's true. For the Timestamp. No one reads this anyway. But I will make this find its way back to its original url. Simply brokeneyeball (Instead of *her* brokeneyeball). For my own sake. Etcetera. So I work now. I drive. I drove just now. Doing better with the gears. Doing better with the gears. Need to upload pictures with these stoopid posts. Gonna bring watercolor with me. And that new watercolor paper I've bought. I can do it. I can make crap work. See, keep them expectations low, and then when I actually put work to paper, maybe it won't fucken suck. 😬. Goodbye for now.

Day 20
I believe the day count is correct. I took last Thursday off, due to an injury. Today is Monday, and yes last week was definitely my first week on the freeway. Actually, today is Tuesday, but my dad needed the day off yesterday to deal with some stuff with my sibling and court.

Tuesday, September 27, 2016

Day 18
Drove like a muhfucka. Jk, mostly like a regular person but, also like a really great driver! Freeway pro right here.

Monday, September 26, 2016

Day 17
I believe. Wednesday I drove two more times than listed. And Thursday I drove twice. It was a short day.


Drove the fourteen wheeler right now. And picked up the rock at the (Red Mountain) pit! Still need a bit of practice catching the gears while downshifting at slow speeds.

Wednesday, September 21, 2016

Just drove INTO (one of) the (materials) pit(s). From previous job site, surface streets light traffic, short drive, but I did pretty well. Into the pit! That's a first. Switched back to passenger's after pulling in, quite in, just before the stock piles of tiny rocks.


[edit: 11:45am] drove again, same destination, two hours later. From a different spot. I've got an itch to drive more more, I've learned and progressed. I should be arriving home to finish that large painting soon. ASAP. Stop time today is unknown, maybe early. Find me on Instagram to see my story posts!

[edit: 2:58pm] another driving session. Thirty minutes.

[edit: 2:48pm] just drove again. Same drive as last. about half an hour. First time going four in one day.

Tuesday, September 20, 2016

Day 14

Surface streets, rush hour traffic, for about an hour.


And finished sketch from yesterday.

Monday, September 19, 2016

Day 13

Drove to this Gila River pit, from east somewhere. Pencil beginnings from today, subject matter unrelated to work day. It's like about that feeling of, feelings.

Wednesday, September 14, 2016

Day 10

3rd day driving on main roads. CDL practice!

[Edit]
Drove in the early evening too, around 4:50 or five, all the way from drop off site, to the house.

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

Just drove to a job site 😬
(about 20 mins)

Monday, September 12, 2016

Thursday, September 08, 2016

Just drove the fourteen wheeler
In circles in a 3 lane road, then all the way home, to my moms house in Mesa. I did Ok!

Wednesday, September 07, 2016

Tuesday, September 06, 2016

Day 05

Today is day five of work. I got a long weekend my first week. I am so tired, so do not want to not have hot water right now. and, I just saw a mouse.
I hope to live somewhere nice one day, in Phoenix. Preferably not 100 years old. But still affordable. I have to finish that painting below asap, I think it will hang in October.

Monday, August 29, 2016

Day 01

Good day! Got home at 6oclock

Sunday, August 28, 2016

Bed time early tonight.
Tomorrow early wake up time.

Friday, August 26, 2016

Thursday, August 25, 2016

Fuck

Sunday, August 21, 2016

It's not that it's great, I'm just archiving. I was gonna leave it, but now I'm gonna add paint, like I had initially intended

Fuck fuck fuck.

so, it's ok. That is just exageration. But, you know, how life goes, and it goes without you,. Whether you are ready to go or not, it is going without you? That's that feeling, that makes me want to curse. Cus, gosh.

Wednesday, August 17, 2016

It's been a nice time. I feel aware of my flaws, as well as all my wants. It's been very nice time. A bit this and that. I will stream again soon. So damn soon. I can do it all. I'm also gonna start working a job. One that pays me. My self is the worse boss ever. Terrible wages.

Sunday, August 14, 2016

Bruce Lee is quoted saying something like "do something everyday that brings you closer to your goals" or dreams, I don't remember. I feel myself dying away aimlessly when I am not doing that. Of course. Bumming myself out. And everyone around me.

After believing I am just having a day off. From trying hard at, best case scenario, making a better life...haha. Aka, getting out of starving status one day.

Saturday, March 12, 2016

Feelings.

Saturday, December 05, 2015

I've learned that, i explain myself a lot. My memories tell me I explain myself even in my sketchbooks, not knowing why i started yet another one sketchbook. In conversation too. I only really converse with one person, not including blood family, so i get to intimately know my own self through them, I feel. and it's great to learn from. Feeling constant change recently, in my life. I'm always trying to be better. Of course I must rest too. and enjoy where I am. I want a lot of things, and I know that want can lead to dispair, but at least I'm aware of that. Anyway. I think a lot, and sometimes I want to write. I blog for myself, i love the archive feel of it. I paint for myself, I don't want to sell what I paint. I make digital reproductions too, work that ends digitally, and often is collaborative, I call it BrokeBot. I hope to update my main blog soon, and keep it as the public archive blog spot for my art work efforts. This space here is mostly just for me, a diary is what i used to call it. Please say hello if you stumble across these posts. it would make me laugh. Now I will enjoy some time, by relaxing with a good videogame. after, I will get in work mode if i'm not hungry or sleepy, and I will carry on with the business of not starving, and etc. then repeat.

Friday, November 20, 2015

My current work in progress. Oils on 16x20 inch canvas.

Tuesday, November 03, 2015

I think it's finished now :) just needs a signature.

Friday, October 23, 2015

Monday, October 19, 2015

Just archiving in my secret blog. If you are here you have to comment! K bye.

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

What I'm working on right now, one of the several I have in progress and hope to finish soon. I'm quite scattered.. I create and produce but it's not very organized, it's hard to give myself structure. I'm trying to work smart, as well as hard, but damn. lol k bye.

Getting it together

So I guess it's time to get up now... and I just did. Here's a flower vase I painted during my time in Mexico this summer. It's acrylic on paper. Today I will focus very hard on my paint work. To see snippets of progress updates, I share those, these days, on snapchat! @brokeneyeball add me:) and believe it or not... Also on livejournal, it's been serving me as an archive, there I posted a couple more images made during my trip! brokeneyeball.livejournal.com

Tuesday, June 23, 2015

 Art show went well. Felt most legit!

Wednesday, June 03, 2015

Finished painting. A couple days ago. "The Extent"
Working title. I think this is my best painting yet. Mostly because I don't usually spend that much effort on backgrounds. :)

Tuesday, March 03, 2015

Current state of my love




It's first Friday week. Thursday I have a mini art show reception at BlissRebar, a fancy restaurant of a cool bar. Saturday a street fair thing, bright and early my day will start. I look forward to Monday, when I can get back to painting. I got a show this morning, a local call came in and, I've been answering my phone recently, and I'm going to bust my ass painting to have a great show. Fuck Yes. I'm excited. and I feel love.

Wednesday, February 25, 2015

Friday, February 13, 2015

Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Friday, August 22, 2014

Thursday, August 14, 2014

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

3 hours of painting

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Tuesday, August 12, 2014

right now

Sever Year Absence

I finally recovered this account.
Today it's raining in the desert. This is the most water I have ever seen in this place. 

[to read jibber jabber and view 6 second video click on the time-stamp below]

Friday, October 19, 2007

Friday, August 03, 2007

Granny

not terribly bad.

Sunday, April 29, 2007

The Journal


http://brokeneyeball.livejournal.com journal i started. UPDATED FREQUENTLY!:D Go comment! ..ill still update here, somewhat.

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

New stuff

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

illustrationFriday - Polar

I like drawing people hiding under animal masks.

Monday, April 23, 2007

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

A new place for Carol ---> http://brokeneyeball.livejournal.com/

Sunday, April 08, 2007

Saturday, April 07, 2007

at Waldoim

It went well.kinda of exciting and hectic...in the last few hours leading upto it... But it wasnt bad at all.

Friday, April 06, 2007

Painting

I think tomorow I only have a few things that I have to do before leaving . And also, i want to finish this painting more. I really want to have it looking really nice for the show, I hope i get enough time to work on it.

Monday, April 02, 2007

Yay!

cutting papers, cleaning glass, cleaning frames..and signing my drawings..and stuff, is what im doing! yAY..foor the show, that will be THIS friday! Im excited.

Saturday, March 31, 2007

My very own stickers!

These are available as stickers and also as magnets (both measure around 2X3inches). You can purchase them through me personaly at every first friday! :D

Friday, March 30, 2007

stickers!

I loove my first three stickers! especially the purple one! They'll be only a dollar each at 1st Fridays! they'll also be availble as awesome magnets :D

a keeping of my drawings, doodles, paintings, paintdoodles, 3d models, works in progress. events, and carol-updates. and pictures.