Day 01

Good day! Got home at 6oclock

Bed time early tonight.
Tomorrow early wake up time.

Fuck

Fuck fuck fuck.

so, it's ok. That is just exageration. But, you know, how life goes, and it goes without you,. Whether you are ready to go or not, it is going without you? That's that feeling, that makes me want to curse. Cus, gosh.

Page / closeup of new over old

I have at least one dozen sketchbooks, each are at least a few pages from being filled cover to cover. Some pages just have writing on them, or scrawled doodled marks that with time seem increasingly mediocre. Sometimes I go back and make new marks over the old. Because sometimes I just want a page I like looking at than a page where I can travel back in time to moments past. 

It's been a nice time. I feel aware of my flaws, as well as all my wants. It's been very nice time. A bit this and that. I will stream again soon. So damn soon. I can do it all. I'm also gonna start working a job. One that pays me. My self is the worse boss ever. Terrible wages.

Bruce Lee is quoted saying something like "do something everyday that brings you closer to your goals" or dreams, I don't remember. I feel myself dying away aimlessly when I am not doing that. Of course. Bumming myself out. And everyone around me.

After believing I am just having a day off. From trying hard at, best case scenario, making a better life...haha. Aka, getting out of starving status one day.