Honey Bear 🐻 ink drawing

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I painted this a few years ago during a livestream in twitch.

Ain't No Thing

Couple days ago, I touched this little page for the last time. Pink pastel and purple splatters. 

6x6 inches in mixed media paper, acrylic, ink, and pastel 

I liked you, You liked me

I wish I could say everything. I wish I had said everything.

I want to make art that can say it for me. 

Lost Love

All I keep doing is missing you, but, if it was meant to be it would be. It felt it wasn't gonna be. We weren't ready to deal with each other. That's okay I guess. I still love you.

s l e e p

I really ought to keep my sleep schedule correct, I mean in order to be ready for work life. So I become exhausted earlier rather than later at night. 

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Wish Me Luck. 

..

Also. 

I miss, the idea of, u.

I never knew you. We never really got to know each other. 

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but, ily 

Gotta Sleep

But, I cant fall asleep.

Here's another 3.5x5" watercolor 

2017

Watercolor

3.5x5"

We Never Talk Anymore

2.5x3.5"

"But I Love You"

Preliminary

stage of current efforts

Portrait Practice Time with Aldo

charcoal on toned paper 

Watercolor

I've set up email posts to this blog. Here is a picture of a painting I finished up yesterday morning. I like it. 

Early Hours

Yesterday, I made some time for painting, at work. During office time, no longer trucking.

Today, I made some time before work! It's looking, nice, i dont know. but mostly, the practice is going well. It's nice trying the watercolor paint in a less diluted way. Now, I almost have to get going, but, WEll, only makes me want to get up even earlier. To get more time in before work. 3am 2 days in a row. Wednesday I had off, cus fourth of July. Painting early in the morning, also gives me that late at night feel, of quiet house. So maybe remembering this will help encourage to do this during non work days. Tomorrow is Saturday! so, great time to try and get up early. 

Been on my own driving the truck for a while now. It's fun. Getting used to it. Taking care of myself better, and doing well enough. I think.

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carolroque.com

I get way too, distracted. instantly.

casual feelings

graphite, 5x5" on paper

i've been working on 2.5x3.5"s these days

Work is going okay this week and the last. Back at it.

The breaks are too short; I'm at the end of training though so I feel OK.

I just drove from the yard to the gas station, for the first time first thing in the am.

I'm so hung up

Test

2 Fridays ago we put the new kenworth to work

This Friday I have a 3rd Friday reception at the Lost Leaf! A fine local bar displaying my art for the month of May

A lot of everything feels so dumb and pointless. That's just one side of the coin though. Everything is also just about infinitely possible.

But you can't have everything.

Parts of me are so sad. And parts of me are so happy.

A drawing I finished today

Working today, a Friday. I haven't had many of those.
This is a unique one.

This is a picture of a watercolor attempt with filter on it. Some fade mostly and a blue tint. Tomorrow I work, right about now is when I'll be going to sleep/bed. Working also on s website makeover, on the side. Practicing watercolor, I finally found my watercolor moleskine sketchbook tonight, I paired it with my new found limited knowledge of the media and came up with this. K bye. Happy holidays to u too.

After eight days off, I'm back to work. And about to drive again. New transmission now, and last week it was a new clutch.

This month I have enjoyed at least the past two weeks in a row as 3-day work weeks. I've got to catch up on day counts. I'm curious. Look at those clouds, past all the man-made stuff. They looked so nice from all angles from which I could spot them. This is from on our way out.

Day 33

Today I moved approximately 20 tons of gravel for the first time! Twice. I suspect this is day 33, but I stopped keeping count a couple weeks ago. It's been fun but also kindof exhausting and busy. Play hard. Work hard!

It's different and odd working for real money. I'm used to working on whatever I want, and hoping to get paid one day. All backwards.

Days

I've lost track of the days

Day 27
Just driving around with an empty truck bed, and being passenger while the truck is loaded. Learning is tiring. This fourteen wheeler is a pain to learn well, like not really, but ishh is hard. Not impossible just not easy.

Just drove into a new mine pit! The one where you drive through desert. Up very east. It was cool

About to drive the fourteen wheeled out of this place.

Day 21
Drove into a new mine today, just earlier. Got a "there you go, mam" after pulling in to pick up the buckets of fine rock or whatever it was. I just do as instructed. It was cool! Freeway pro and all. Downshifting better. Minimal downtime besides being passenger. And lacking some sleep.

Day 20
I believe the day count is correct. I took last Thursday off, due to an injury. Today is Monday, and yes last week was definitely my first week on the freeway. Actually, today is Tuesday, but my dad needed the day off yesterday to deal with some stuff with my sibling and court.

Day 17
I believe. Wednesday I drove two more times than listed. And Thursday I drove twice. It was a short day.


Drove the fourteen wheeler right now. And picked up the rock at the (Red Mountain) pit! Still need a bit of practice catching the gears while downshifting at slow speeds.

Day 14

Surface streets, rush hour traffic, for about an hour.

And finished sketch from yesterday.

Day 10

3rd day driving on main roads. CDL practice!

[Edit]
Drove in the early evening too, around 4:50 or five, all the way from drop off site, to the house.

Just drove to a job site 😬
(about 20 mins)

Just drove the fourteen wheeler
In circles in a 3 lane road, then all the way home, to my moms house in Mesa. I did Ok!

Day 05

Today is day five of work. I got a long weekend my first week. I am so tired, so do not want to not have hot water right now. and, I just saw a mouse.
I hope to live somewhere nice one day, in Phoenix. Preferably not 100 years old. But still affordable. I have to finish that painting below asap, I think it will hang in October.

Day 01

Good day! Got home at 6oclock

Bed time early tonight.
Tomorrow early wake up time.

Fuck

Fuck fuck fuck.

so, it's ok. That is just exageration. But, you know, how life goes, and it goes without you,. Whether you are ready to go or not, it is going without you? That's that feeling, that makes me want to curse. Cus, gosh.

It's been a nice time. I feel aware of my flaws, as well as all my wants. It's been very nice time. A bit this and that. I will stream again soon. So damn soon. I can do it all. I'm also gonna start working a job. One that pays me. My self is the worse boss ever. Terrible wages.

Bruce Lee is quoted saying something like "do something everyday that brings you closer to your goals" or dreams, I don't remember. I feel myself dying away aimlessly when I am not doing that. Of course. Bumming myself out. And everyone around me.

After believing I am just having a day off. From trying hard at, best case scenario, making a better life...haha. Aka, getting out of starving status one day.

Feelings.

I think it's finished now :) just needs a signature.

Just archiving in my secret blog. If you are here you have to comment! K bye.

Getting it together

So I guess it's time to get up now... and I just did. Here's a flower vase I painted during my time in Mexico this summer. It's acrylic on paper. Today I will focus very hard on my paint work. To see snippets of progress updates, I share those, these days, on snapchat! @brokeneyeball add me:) and believe it or not... Also on livejournal, it's been serving me as an archive, there I posted a couple more images made during my trip! brokeneyeball.livejournal.com

 Art show went well. Felt most legit!

Recently Finished Paintings

Finished painting || 6 hrs total

3 hours of painting

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right now

Sever Year Absence

I finally recovered this account.
Today it's raining in the desert. This is the most water I have ever seen in this place. 

[to read jibber jabber and view 6 second video click on the time-stamp below]

She Will Love Anyone

Granny

not terribly bad.

The Journal

http://brokeneyeball.livejournal.com journal i started. UPDATED FREQUENTLY!:D Go comment! ..ill still update here, somewhat.

New stuff

illustrationFriday - Polar

I like drawing people hiding under animal masks.

illustrationFriday - Polar

A new place for Carol ---> http://brokeneyeball.livejournal.com/

Illustration Friday - Green

at Waldoim

It went well.kinda of exciting and hectic...in the last few hours leading upto it... But it wasnt bad at all.

Painting

I think tomorow I only have a few things that I have to do before leaving . And also, i want to finish this painting more. I really want to have it looking really nice for the show, I hope i get enough time to work on it.

Yay!

cutting papers, cleaning glass, cleaning frames..and signing my drawings..and stuff, is what im doing! yAY..foor the show, that will be THIS friday! Im excited.

My very own stickers!

These are available as stickers and also as magnets (both measure around 2X3inches). You can purchase them through me personaly at every first friday! :D

stickers!

I loove my first three stickers! especially the purple one! They'll be only a dollar each at 1st Fridays! they'll also be availble as awesome magnets :D

Granny Francis - school work

Heres a render of the old lady.. or Granny, I very quickly during my presentation on the 'project', named her Francis. I think it suits her well. This was not a great project, everything was rushed, i think. But she looks kinda cute, animating sucked a bit. I might re-work her later on (beggining at the end of the modeling process). But, next, i will prepare the guy i modeled before, for my Character Animation class, so i can animate him.

Collaboration

collaboration between Aldo and me. We each drew certain phases of it..He started the drawing, then i reshaped a little and inked.. then he shaded more. Then from that point on, we each did our own versions.